I was born in Hackensack, New Jersey, but I grew up in the town of West New York for the first five-ish years of my life. At that young age, at my brazilian mother's insistence, our family moved to the town of Bauru, São Paulo, where I would be raised for the next 9 years, 9 months, and 9 days. For most of that time my interest in music was very casual, until one day in October of 2017. I was sick and bedridden, looking through YouTube videos on my iPhone 4. I happened upon a video about Gorillaz lore, and not knowing what it was, I clicked it. The next thing I remember was sitting in the shower, the hot water splashing on my back as "Tomorrow Comes Today" played in the background on that crummy phone speaker. I was hooked. I got into other bands from there, getting involved in Discord servers where people would introduce me to other bands, and eventually I grew to become an avid music geek. While I toyed around in Audacity occasionally during this time - having also started to pick up guitar through learning Syd Barrett songs - it wouldn't be until after I moved back to New Jersey that I started being interested in writing my own music. I don't remember how I came about the album Eagle Creek by Ashley Ninelives, but something about its noisy production combined with its crude, unfiltered lyricism spoke to me in such a way that made me go "hey, I could do something like this". I spent the next 3 years of my life teaching myself how to write and record songs, releasing them as I went under the name Chalkboard. I released three albums through the time of my usage of the alias (alongside several miscellaneous demos and such): Cardboard in 2021, Floorboard in 2023, and Dashboard in 2024 (although the material was all recorded in 2023).
I was in a pit of depression following the release of Floorboard as I struggled to adapt to my newfound college environment. I spent a lot of time talking with a close friend in Washington whom I bonded with due to our shared interests in music, furry culture, and weird sex things. I had also realized around that time that I was therian, feeling severely disconnected from humanity and seeing myself as more animal than human, something which I feel is a significant part of my queer identity. It was during one of my talks with this friend while sharing art by the furry artist DeadBunny that we discussed our shared desire to get killed as a result of kinky sex. At exactly 11:30 PM on October 30th, 2023, I commented on how it could be a banger song idea, less than a minute later sending the message "two chord 9-minute epic about being disconnected from reality and craving death and feeling more animal than human". I had recorded a guitar demo a few minutes prior partially based off a phone recording of a melody I came up with earlier in the day. I spent the night restlessly working on the song, which I named "Bunnydeath", recording a nearly-structurally-complete demo about two and a half hours after. I spent the majority of my Halloween and the early hours of November 1st working restlessly on the song and its album art. By that afternoon, the song was done and I spent the rest of November 1st working on the design for a new Bandcamp page and promoting the song, with the intent of releasing it on November 2nd, that month's Bandcamp Friday. It ended up being my most successful song up to that point, leading to me abandoning Chalkboard for good and to hone in on the noise pop sound I achieved with that song. With now two singles and two EPs under my belt, I find myself looking forward to working on my first album and several collaborative projects soon to come!
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